On Saturday, one of my favorite little friends is celebrating her 2nd Birthday.  I met her way back on the day when her mommy had first taken her preggo test…. literally a tiny little miracle bean growing inside one of my favorite people, her mommy.  It is so hard to believe that was nearly 3 years ago.  Little Miss D is such a princess inside and out.  I know she is only 2 but she is already super smart, loves my little Lissy, can flaunt some fashion, and can have a full conversation if you let her.  Ummmm…. her cute little smile makes me melt.  Happy Birthday, Davis and may you always cast a cute little smile for my camera.

Hugs and I luv  yous~

Miss Gina

Right before bed tonight I am going to have a conversation with God.  I am going to ask him if I can have a do-over or maybe a refund for today.  Last post I mentioned how crazy my life seems to be.  A beautiful life, but crazy at times.  Today is a sample of why some days need to be “do-overs”.  I take my kiddo to the “early-bus”, yep this starts off making me seem like a looser mommy, but I have to get the 100lb puppy to the vet to get “fixed” before I get to work at an 8:30 am session.    So then I head out in hubby’s man truck (way to big and uncontrollable for me) down the busy-est road in San Antonio (281), in the pouring rain playing road rage with all the other hussle and bustle men on the road.  Can they see I have curls in my hair, lipstick on, and some cute red high heels, really I’m not into the testosterone fix this early in the morning and really I am not a man in this man-truck”.  Finally I get to the vet, drop of the doggie, and head out to a days work.  Mid afternoon I get a call from Lissy’s school, “Mrs. Mommy….please come pick up your kidlet because she has 101 degree fever and needs to leave campus, now!”.  Oh, lovely….

Call the doctor on the way, schedule an appointment for late afternoon, and remember the dog is still at the vet and can’t get picked up till 3:15.  Decide to make a mommy-dog decision and get the puppy beast because I am headed home a good way up that wonderful 281.  Poor baby Weimeraner Bella, she is on some drugs and is acting like a normal dog (Mr. Vet doctor, can I have more of those?).  Although she is acting and walking like she had a little too much tequilla, to bad puppy, we have to go pick up your human sister..she has a boo-boo too.  So now it is mid afternoon….sick and sutured dog in backseat, raining still, and pick up Alyssa who seems perfectly normal…not sick.  Yep, this mommy feels a little frustrated.  She swears at 9am her throat was hurting

Here is #2 reason for looser mommy :  not 30 minutes after feeling frustrated, Lissy starts looking, sounding, and feeling really sick.  We get to the doctor and she is a fever of 102, crying because she does not feel well , and get this…. poor baby is positive for the flu virus, yes that one.   My cute little angel then turns and says, “Mommy, do you believe me, now”.  Yes stamp a big “L” on my forehead.    As I peek into her snuggly bed this night, I am thankful for such an angel, her honest, her “real” visits to the school nurse, and really need to beg for a do-over for today.

And since every post must have a pic…here is my angel at her slumber party this past weekend (virus free, well maybe)….

And BTW…..I just started coughing….and my throat a little sore ???!! ugggghhhhh

Lissy and Sweet My Sweet Niece Destiny

BFFs

I sometimes try to sit and just breathe.  I know this might sound very random and very weird, but life right now has been turning circles in my mind, heart, and reality.  Sometimes I will write posts that read , “how busy I am” (this is really an attempt to apologize for not keeping up with the blogging world).  Those closest to me know and warn me that those simple four words are an understatement.  It makes me feel guilty.    I feel so lucky to be so “into” so many things, and for this I feel guilty.   I feel guilty when I let an hour go and nothing is accomplished, whether that be writing a thank you note, playing dress-up with Lissy, reading passages for bible study, learning some physics, snapping my shutter, kissing my hubby, painting my toes, and oh…the list goes on forever.  .  That internal desire to “do”, keeps my life in circles. Today I will say a prayer that my circles become one instead of so many… so that I can enjoy all the things I enjoy.  I will breathe.

My camera makes me happy.  I love that split second moment that I capture the unexpected look, the glimpse of a non posed grin, or the ache that coincides with a belly laugh.  I love to laugh and my camera makes me happy, people make me happy.  There were times this weekend that I knew I had a shot I wanted and a shot that I knew my clients would love.  Those captures from this weekend will make them happy, and make me happy.

I have been reflecting alot lately and I can’t really decide what I love t shoot more, soft newborns, giddy toddlers, blushing brides, or in love couples.  I often wonder if it is okay that they all make me and my camera happy.  I came across a few of my favorite photographers who often talk about the fact that they don’t do anything else but “________”, whether that be weddings, children, or newborns.  I hope it is okay that I find joy in all of my clients and truly love the work I do. And I wonder if it is not okay, to whom should I ask permission to?    I can’t seem to find it in me to limit my happiness and the happy faces of my clients when they see their portraits for the first time.  I want to be greedy and love it all.

This little girl makes me happy.  She is a sweetie pie from Phoenix who’s mom let me catch a few special moments of her sassy self.  Ahhh…she made me and my camera happy.